Visitation

Today was hard...I went to the funeral home for visitation for a dear sweet friend who passed away this week in a motorcycle accident.  I HATE despise abhorr loathe  open casket funerals.  I don't want anyone to see me once I am dead.  I don't want my children to have to go through that.  No one looks like themselves.  It makes it so much harder for me to go to a funeral when I know it will be open casket.

  It seems like I have been surrounded by death since I was 15 years old.  There was even a time when I thought that I was so used to it that it didn't bother me any more.  I was wrong.  It hurts.  It hurts even more when my daddy, who never cries, is standing beside me holding my hand and bawling his eyes out.  I know that God has a reason, it is just really hard to understand what his reasoning is...there are so many bad people still here living and continuing to do bad things.  I guess all I can do is pray for comfort for her family and trust that one day we will meet again.

RIP Brandy "Sue" Coker-Brown